Nearly a year has passed, I think about you as much as ever so that means you will never be gone. It has been so hard without you, there are still lots of times I think I can't do it but your amazing daddy, family, and lots of aunties and uncles keep me going. Your birthday tomorrow should have been a lovely celebration of a beautiful little boy but I'm afraid it will be a day filled with sadness that you're not here. Sleep tight little Rufus my gorgeous boy xxxxxxxx